Lately, it just pisses me off.
“It will happen!” friends exclaim and I want to yell “You don’t know that!”
I know they’re just trying to be helpful. Supportive. If I push back I get called out. Pessimist. Negative. “You need to be more positive,” they tell me and I just want to scream.
We will be cycling around Christmas. “This is going to be the best Christmas!” one friend told me. “Or not,” I snorted.
I wish I didn’t feel this way. I wish their cheer didn’t make me want to gnash my teeth at them and howl. I know they are trying to say, “I want this for you because I love you,” but all I hear is “Don’t worry, just relax”.