We had our NT scan last week. My stomach was in knots waiting in the waiting room, then on the table. Will ultrasounds ever not worry me? I’m really hoping so. All the measurements looked great. We opted out of the blood work and chose to do the Verifi prenatal test instead. And now we wait. My mind has been running in circles. Please let everything be ok. Please let everything be ok. Please let everything be ok. I’ve promised myself (and the husband) that if when we pass this hurdle I will let go. Relax (how I’ve grown to hate that word). Enjoy this whole thing. Maybe the nausea will go away soon too? Positive thoughts.


First, thank you for all the well wishes. I’ve been unsure how to continue here, but I know I enjoy following people’s stories all the way through, so I will continue to post updates. I completely understand if it’s not what you want to read.

Yesterday was our 8 week appointment and graduation from our RE. It was a little sad. These people have been really good to us and we’re so thankful for what they’ve been able to do for us. It’s still all a bit surreal.

Everything is measuring on schedule, 8 weeks on the nose with a heartbeat of 169. Nausea has come on in full force this week. I spend most mornings dry heaving until I can get some food in my stomach. I’ve been having the strangest food aversions, for example, bacon makes me green. Just typing that made my stomach turn. Bacon! I usually love warm things but can’t seem to stomach any of it right now. I’ve been drinking smoothies and eating A LOT of oranges. I used to drink 3 or more cups of herbal tea a day. Can’t stand the smell of it now. It’s weird what our bodies do.

The most exciting news: NO MORE PIO SHOTS.

First appointment with my nurse midwife is at 10 weeks.

We had our first ultrasound yesterday. The nugget is measuring on track at 6 weeks and a few days and we got to hear a heartbeat. It was surreal. I spent most of the morning leading up to the appointment in a blind panic. I haven’t really had any symptoms. Maybe a little bit of nausea? Next check up is next week at 8 weeks. If all goes well, we can stop PIO shots, estrogen supplements, and I’ll be released to an OB. I haven’t even allowed myself to look for one yet, but I guess I better get on that?

Oh! And there is only one! The high betas had us wondering.

Doubling in 34 hours. Crazy pants. It’s starting to sink in. I still feel great, no symptoms. I had some cramping and night sweats the days leading up to the beta (typical PMS symptoms for me) that left me feeling low but have felt great since Thursday. Hopefully that’s my normal. I’m trying to just embrace it and how lucky we’ve been and take it one day at a time. Easier said than done!

First, thank you, everyone, for your well wishes.

I took a test this morning so we wouldn’t be waiting all day. I never thought I’d see that second line. Beta is 319. That seems high, since we only transferred one, but maybe it’s because it had already started hatching before the transfer and was really a day 6 embryo? I had a lot of sharp stabbing pain last Friday and Saturday so I’m guessing that was implantation? I’m going with it. I feel great (or as great as one can feel with a swollen PIO bum). We are ecstatic and in shock. My first instinct was to pour myself a bourbon, which, I guess won’t do.  (And I’m not sure what that says about me.) 2nd beta on Saturday. Holy shit balls.

It happened last week Tuesday, right on schedule. Today I am 8dp5dt. Tomorrow is my Beta. I haven’t tested yet. I’m unsure if I will at all. I’ve been mostly calm. I meant to update, I really did, but every time I thought to do so the panic would start. What if this doesn’t work? What if it never works? I let go a lot these past two months. I started going to yoga again. Started focusing on the things I’ve neglected these last 22 months. I can’t believe it’s been that long. It was supposed to be quick. A baby before 35 and another 2 years later. I had a plan. I’ll be 36 this year. We have two embryos still in the freezer. I am hoping with all my heart that we get good news tomorrow. Either way, I will let you know.

Thank you everyone for your good thoughts. It seems the universe was listening. We have 3 blasts in the freezer. No grading yet but our coordinator (who is back! Yay!) assured me that to make it that far they have to be good. We should have grades later today. The plan is to call with my next period and start the FET right away. And because we never finished the full IVF cycle the FET is covered by our insurance! Talk about a Merry Christmas!